Singer-actress Selena Gomez (30) revealed that she may not be able to have children due to bipolar disorder meds.
Gomez said this in an interview with Rolling Stone ahead of the release of her new documentary “My Mind and Me”, which tells her own story.
Gomez confessed that the painful realization weighed her down when she visited a friend who was trying to get pregnant. After their time together, Gomez burst into tears in her car.
According to WebMD, bipolar disorder medications have the potential to cause birth issues including neural tube defects, heart defects as well as developmental delay or neurobehavioral problems. However, some physicians recommend staying on such medications through childbirth, as bipolar symptoms can worsen during pregnancy.
Gomez never actually attempted suicide, but spent a few years contemplating it. She said matter-of-factly, “I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there.”
According to Rolling Stone, Gomez’s highs and lows would last weeks or months at a time, prompted by nothing she could put her finger on. Sometimes she would not be able to sleep for days, and sometimes it was weeks she would be in bed. There were things she thought might be contributing to her distress. She was struggling to find an authentic artistic voice, to shirk the Disney polish, to age along with her fans.
She also said, “I grew up thinking I would be married at 25. It wrecked me that I was nowhere near that – couldn’t be farther from it. It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over”, “I never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities. My only friend in the industry really is Taylor Swift, so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong”, “I just didn’t like who I was, because I didn’t know who I was.”
By 2018, Gomez was hearing voices, and as the voices got louder and louder and drowned out more and more of the real world, they triggered an episode of psychosis. She ended up in a treatment facility, where she spent several months suspended in paranoia, unable to trust anyone, thinking they were all out to get her. She was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which meant that she was loaded up on medications, doctors throwing things at the wall and hoping something might stick.
After she left the facility, she found a psychiatrist who realized she was on a lot of medications she should not have been on and pulled her off all but two. Slowly, she felt herself starting to come back.
Meanwhile, “My Mind and Me” will be released on Apple TV+ on Nov 4th.